hit and miss

what a surreal day. and the story i am about to tell will have nothing to do with studies, mind you.

i was at the bus stop nonchalantly talking with two of my friends. out of the corner of my eye, i noticed this nice looking guy looking at us (of course, i assumed he was looking at me, too). looks shy judging by his smile, but with a kinda intense gaze.

ah what the hell, you know. i'd never thought i'd get to know him personally, so i just chatted away. on the bus, when my friends went to their respective stops (leaving me alone), i again caught the guy looking. hmm... must be my imagination.

i get off my first stop and began walking to the next bus stop to catch my next ride. i somehow sensed that he got off as well and was walking behind me. still, i brushed it off, taking it as a coincidence that he might just have the destination as mine. all of a sudden, he is right beside, and matching my pace. i thought i'd slow it a bit, thinking he wanted to go ahead, but noooo, he was still beside me.

there was no mistaking about it; he WAS looking at me then, and perhaps wanted to talk. my heart began beating faster. (also thought about my promise to God that i am supposed to wait for the right one)

so while walking, i turn to him and say if he's going to the station as i am. he says yes. we reached our stop, but being that it was a new building, i took my time to take a look around. SO DID HE. i walk inside the office, and he follows. he begins asking what bus i am taking, i reply and in turn ask about his. i leave him for a while to buy my ticket, but then i notice he is waiting for me. oh my.

(now that i think about it, he must have ridden the bus the day before, therefore he should've known about the new bus station already.. hmmmm).

all this suspense was really building up inside me. i had to think fast if i was just going to leave him, or take the chance of knowing. sigh. so just short of holding the bull by its horns, i plunge in and ask (casually, i hoped) his name. he asks mine. we shake hands. then we head off to the shed to wait for our buses.

but wait. he stays in my shed, when HIS shed is a few meters away. the suspense is gone, replaced by a curiousity of how this encounter would turn out.

what happened next? it was a blur, to be honest. i attempted to keep the conversation going, so in the end, each of us got a lot of info from each other - our courses, our class schedules, our subjects, where we came from (kulang na lang, maghingian na lang kami ng number!). kinda awkward for me, but amusing nevertheless. i couldn't look at him straight, honestly because he WAS good-looking. he had somewhat curly hair, nice smooth face, semi-pointed chin. i also had the distinct impression that this guy was the torpe kind. ay, but the eyes. i thought i saw a glimmer of green and brown. wow..

he finally leaves for his shed because his bus arrives earlier than mine. i wave goodbye, and stay in my seat. kinda happy i got to meet a new friend and how well it all turned out. at one point, i turn around to check if my bus has arrived, and accidentally glance at his shed (really, accidentally). oh my. i notice he is STILL looking. aaaaah! in a semi-state of panic, or just the need to do something, ANYTHING, i pretend i left something and go inside the office. when i went back out, i saw he went inside his bus. phew.

i dunno if i was carried away by our conversations, or by him, or by the new bus stations, but later on, i found out that i took the wrong bus stop (!!) and had to wait for an additional 30min to get into the right one. there was some euphoria involved, i guess, and suddenly images of future meetings swirled in my head.

but by the time i got to my bus (finally), i was hit by the notion that this guy was younger than me. WAY younger than me. i recalled that he just got off highschool, and this was his first semester. WHICH MAKES HIM 18 (or so).

drat.

i'll guess i'll just have to look forward to having just a new acquaintance then.

a long interlude

wow, a full month or so has passed by since my last entry, huh? what is there to say? had my exams, and drank beer and liquor the day after (to celebrate the end of hard work). bad. i don't wanna do it again. i finally finished my 2 summer classes, scoring an A on both. i'm now in my fall semester, with 4 subjects this time. i found out that mr chem is courting my closest friend this time. i took a day off from my school and went to a water amusement park. i got offered the chem tutor job, which still haven't fallen thru due to some missing paperwork. met more new friends, mostly foreign students. saw our dean, who suspiciously looks like mr. bean. watched kung fu hustle, a spectacularly fun hilarious movie.

on another note, a historic thing must be said. out of the blue, i gathered all the names of my crushes and those i thought or knew that had a crush on me. placed them all on a piece of paper. prayed to God to give them happy and blesses lives, and me as well. added i will now patiently wait for the One that He has planned for me. folded the paper, got a lighter, went out of the patio, and burned the paper. ganun lang. somewhat dramatic, na corny. ewan. all i know was i needed to do it. afterwards, i felt some spice had gone out of my life, but there was some unseen burden that was somehow lifted. just a little. but the change was noticeable.

so that's it. i had wanted to write something more elaborate and in detail, but time dulls the memory and the passion in writing (mas ok kung in the moment). for that, i apologize to my readers. i will try to be more faithful next time.

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aug29
ok na kami uli ni mr chem. the friendship has somewhat returned, at nagkukulitan na kami uli. it's a relief. honestly, he IS a good friend that i wouldn't want to lose.