4 years later

.... CH returns :)

i did tell you not to hold me to my word when i said i would resume writing so soon. therefore, i don't think apologies are in order. but if you insist, to my defense, at least you didn't have to wait 6 years long, as most readers/fans did with for the latest installment for the Song of Ice and Fire series by author George R.R. Martin.

so what happened?

life got in the way. i've made good progress with my career, being that i am a full-fledged nurse as i type this. yes, all the training, hardwork, and studying ultimately paid off in the form of 2 letters after my family name. RN. i now work at a hospital in the city, which i can best summarize with this -- it is by turns either rewarding and disheartening, sometimes both, mostly the latter. i don't want to elaborate further.

love-life... i have someone interested in me right now; unfortunately it's only one-sided. i feel bad for him. i surprise myself that i am frank as i write this (but then again, i've always been frank with this blog), but i am just not into him, regardless of the qualifications he has --- he's a nice filipino guy, with a house and full-time job, cooks, musically-inclined (plays the piano) and has very good family relationships (well, he's a mother's boy -- which is both a good thing and a bad thing). he's also into anime, which i really appreciate.

so the question begs to be said ---- why, for the love of God, am i not interested????

i would like to say many things: first impression wasn't good (he did arrive for our date in a tracksuit). he's very much of an introvert. the conversations haven't been that... stimulating (and you know i love me some good conversations). he's a mama's boy. other than the above, he apparently doesn't seem to have any other interests/hobbies.

but it may just boil down to 2 reasons:

because i am stupid.

because i am interested in another.

ayayayay...

here we go again.