looking out the window

always the observer. that's how i am when looking at opportunities.

unlike other people who jump the gun and eagerly grab the best-looking one that comes their way with no thoughts of consequences whatsoever, i tend to wait, look, and, if i am given enough time, think about it later (or find another window to get another view of the opportunity). i don't want to over-excite myself, less i don't see the risks involved. it might be from my tendency to over-analyze things too much and having difficulties of just letting go. or a preference of taking the harder route, if it's the safer option.

the point is, opportunities are not the black-and-white pictures they seem to be, but are in shades of gray that you didn't think were there. there is hesitation and a little fear, yet i also know that these are also what's keeping me from just living life to the fullest.

better said than done. until i can overcome those factors and the boundaries of my comfort zone, i'm stuck to watching the world through windows.