the need for time out

okay. m not really the one who should complain abt that, since i AM doing nothing right now. but can you believe THAT's actually tiring?

that said, i can't wait to get a car. or a way to just GO. GET OUT OF HERE. of course i know i'm gonna be stuck here for a while, but i desperately need to free myself, my mind, my body from the stifling confines of this place. and ye, the people, too. if i were back in pinas, all i had to do was get a tricycle or jeep, and BOOM! i'm outta here, baby! my commuting skills can be quite handy, i tell u.

okay, so maybe i usually just go to the mall, but it was enough to give me a change in scenery. and getting my mind off anything bothering me at the moment. the sad part is, there are no public transportation in sight from where i am right now. i could use the car if it were mine. but it's not. so i am left to use the only alternative i have -- my legs.

and last week, i walked for half an hour. and everyday since then.

somehow, i found some strange satisfaction to that. yes, i heard walking does wonders to the legs, physique (hah! given a few more months cguro. ahem), weight loss (uh, years?). but i've only begun to realize the calming effect it brings. breathing. walking. the repetition of it all. then that acute awareness to everything, but focus on nothing. it's weird, i tell u.

there's also room cleaning. EXCESSIVE blogging. did vaccuuming today too (also kinda relaxing). gawd, OC-tendencies really kicking in high gear (nooooooo!!). that, or i'm really bored, or really pissed.

i still want to get that mileage though. nothing beats knowing you can set this distance from where you feel stuck at/in/to. and while i'm at it, i wouldn't mind getting some serious spa/massage treatment, too.

i really, REALLY need a timeout.